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September 2010
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friskykitten64 [userpic]
I had my Lap RNY on 5/2/05

Highest weight: 317
Lowest weight: 169
Current weight: 182

Right now I am working on not taking this tool for granted. I weigh about once a week and try to maintain an online food diary at http//:www.sparkpeople.com 

My weaknesses are that I am a lazy ass who hates to exercise and I haven't done well in that area.
I also smoke and drink coffee which I know are no-no's.

My strengths are that I am somewhat self-aware and can usually recognize a self destructive eating habit quickly before it gets out of hand. 
I am--though not perfect about it--at least consistent about taking my vitamins and logging my food. 

On an emotional level, I am petrified of gaining my weight back. I know that a certain amount of bounce back weight is expected. If I were to gain it all back, to be perfectly honest, I don't know if I have it in me to lose it yet again. I would be miserable, embarrassed, and deeply disappointed in myself. 

This is the most weight I have ever lost and kept off for this long. 

Here's a link to my story if you are interested.


Current Location: Reno, NV
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: None